Work...
Spring is in the air (NO ITS NOT!) which means that its calving season. Our herd is about half way done, and the other herds will be starting in April. Ben will be really busy, and will probably be sleeping out at the ranch for a while so he can go check the cows. So far calving has gone pretty well, but there is still alot more to come.
Life...
We were thrown a bit of a curve ball this last month, and I have to say, it was one of the most upsetting and disappointing ones yet. In February we found out that we were expecting another little bundle of joy in October, after nine months of trying. We were so excited! I was feeling great, tired and nauseous, but great. However, Heavenly Father had another plan for our little family. Early in March, at about 7 weeks, we had a heartbreaking miscarriage. I know that people always say that you miscarry for a reason, but it was/is still heartbreaking. Heartbreaking as a mother, expecting a new baby to nurture. Even though they are tiny, they already hold a piece of your heart, for in your mind they had a future, in which they were a part of your family. You were supposed to carry them lovingly for 9 months, through all the pains of pregnancy, feeling them grow inside you. You were supposed to take care of them as a baby, child, teenage, adult. All these things that were supposed to be, just disappear in the blink of an eye. All the "what if's" change...it goes from What if its a boy? What if its a busy time of year? What if its a miserable pregnancy with a crazy toddler? to What if it takes that long again, or longer? What if that was our last chance? What if it happens again? I try to be strong, knowing that it was part of God's plan, but sometimes I still cry over what could have been, what we wanted so bad. But I know that everything will work out the way it is supposed to, and we will try again. I may look like I have it all under control, and that I am totally nonchalant about the whole thing, but underneath I am still sad for what could have been. (Not looking for pity points, so please dont comment on Facebook. If you want to talk to me about it, message me. Thanks)
Homemaking...
After our loss, I decided that I was going to throw myself into homemaking and being a mother to my perfect little girl. I have never been a homemaker, I HATE cleaning!!! Especially laundry! But I have tried to be a better homemaker as of late. I couldnt tell you if it was improving any, cuz you couldnt tell I was trying by looking at my house. With a very active 15month old, a very active 26yr old, and 2 very playful dogs, my house is in constant chaos. It is very frustrating, having to clean the same thing a dozen or more times a day. Its frustrating when all that you do goes unnoticed, and even more frustrating when the people around you dont like the effort (a very stubborn and opinionated 15 month old). Everyone and everything is working against you. It all seems pointless.
But, I have found a tonne of new recipes that we love, and am in the process of finally putting my cookbook together (that I got for my wedding). I have enjoyed that part of homemaking, and have fun trying new or healthier recipes. Its all a work in progress.
Brooklynn...
The section you have all be waiting for. Unfortunately I have been slacking on the video and picture taking, and any Brooklynn updates.
Age: 15 months
Clothes: wears size 24 month sleepers, 18-24mon clothes, almost sz 6 shoes. Loves wearing her gumboots.
Likes:
-baths, but only if you dont get her head wet
-POPCORN!!!!! This is her favorite food group. When we go over to Ben's parents (they have a popcorn machine), she walks over to the tuperware cupboard and pulls out her bowl, then pesters anyone within sight for popcorn.
-BARNEY!!!!!! Oh my is this girl obsessed with Barney! She could watch Barney all day if I let her. Luckily there are billion episodes on youtube. It is a life saver when we have to go on long trips, cuz she hates sitting still for too long unless it is watching Barney. She knows that she has to go sit in her cushion chair when she watches Barney, then she sits there throughout the entire episode.
-meat, fruit
-playing in the dog drinking bowl....grrr >:(
-bouncing on the bed
-going for walks ("alk")
-nursery
Hates:
-being told what to do! She is so determined and independent, it scares me sometimes
-getting her hair done, even though she asks for me to do her hair?
-no Barney
Things she can do:
-Itsy bitsy spider
-Happy and you know it
-can repeat all the letters of the alphabet
-can say names and sounds of most animals
-tries to walk up stairs
-short sentences/phrases ("daddy at work", "bye daddy, kiss", "Charlie, bad!", "you're cute/crazy", "no touch", "stop it", etc etc). Phenomenal language skills for her age.
-pretty much anything you tell her not to
-anything she sets her mind to.
Pictures.....
Good boy "Magurk"
Just like daddy
Look at that cutie with all her hair!
My little model
She like to have her cake and eat it too!
Pretty in pink
Me and Mommy
Charlie (newest addition, female english bulldog)
Her favorite gumboots. That was all she wanted to wear
Large milkshake she stole from mommy. Drank the whole thing
Strike a pose
Mom's boots
Poker night (Ben's mom did even recognize him cuz he's lost so much weight, especially in his face)
Maverick and Charlie
Watchin Barney on Grandpa's knee
Watchin Barney after church
Found a place to sit and read (she filled it full of blankets, a hair brush, and her necklace)
Daddy at his kickboxing tournament (won 2nd)
Playing with Charlie
